The Breakdown of Adventure

As great my desire to travel and adventure far away from "home", I am begininning to feel the gravity of the move across country. As exciting as it is to leap off into the unknown, it is hard to leave behind that which I know. As I fight to make time to see people one last time before I leave, I understand how many people I am actually leaving behind. To successfully meet adventure and win, you cannot be looking behind at what you have to lose, you have to be able to fully engage that which is in front of you. Meaning I have to leap off the cliff instead of dragging my feet along. That is a slightly overwhelming concept. For the simple reason that I really don't know what is ahead of me. I have an idea, but if I have learned only one thing in my life it is this, God has the capability of overturning all of our carefully laid out plans instantaneously. If I cannot completely trust God in all that he is, that will become a terrifying thought.

Just Saying.

In addition to all of that...

Maybe I am just getting older and realizing my mortality, but there is so much more that I need to do before I go. I am used to running from life, and I am leaving behind trails of issues that I need to deal with instead of running off into the next adventure, a new environment. I want to go "home", to fix that which is broken there. I am realizing so much the weight of my leaving, and as my relationship with my family back home has improved it has made it more difficult to pick up and leave. Same with relationships that I have now, I don't just want to write off the relationships that were once so strong.

Just Saying.

As much as I pride myself on having the life of a nomad, I am coming to recognize the great loss that can accompany this way of life. I wonder how much longer I can continue the life of a wanderer before I will have to adapt to a final new environment. What does that even look like for me?

Risky Teaching

God is profoundly risky in how he loves us. He's willing to risk losing us to gain us. He's willing to let us be hurt on the chance that we might let him heal us. This "reckless" love characterizes and encompasses everything that God does.

The Official Trip from GA to Utah

The trip from GA to Utah has officially been planned. 

1. Toccoa Falls to Mount Sunflower in Kansas. (Highpoint 33)
2. Mount Sunflower to Black Mesa in Oklahoma. (Highpoint 34)
3. Black Mesa to Wheeler Peak in New Mexico.  (Highpoint 35)
4. Wheeler Peak to Kings Peak in Utah. (Highpoint 36)
5. Camp and Rest at Kings Peak, Utah.
6. End at Duchesne, Utah to start work.

Daring to Ask

The question that we always come back around to is simple. All it is is this, "Who am I". Eventually, regardless of whether we come to a final answer about this one question we venture into the question of, "who am I going to be". I don't think either of them can be answered separately.

Maybe that is what this blog is supposed to be, salvation in the form of the answer to my questions. 

I live as a nomad: separate from all, daring to venture into the new and unknown. The constant journey though that reaches beyond location and destination is that of my soul. I don't know where I am heading, or really where I am now, but I know I don't belong here.